I could finally put my finger on it. I was weary.
A soul-heavy, mind-numbing weariness had taken hold of me. It was a tremendous weight that no amount of exertion could lift. It was a dreadful state of mind that played “I just can’t do this anymore” like a broken record. It was the kryptonite to my very soul.
For months I had chalked it up to being tired. I told myself that it was just a season. I just had to push through till there was time to relax. So I pushed. But after I hit every deadline, checked every task off my list, and finally slowed down - there was no rest.
I was weary from ministry.
I was weary from relationships.
I was weary from my sin.
In the end, that’s what it came down to. I was sick of my lack of discipline. Sick of failing in the same exact ways. Sick of my constant shortcomings. Sick of being sick with sin.
I was weary from it all. And there didn’t seem to be a way out. After all, how can you fight weariness if you are already weary? That’s like trying to get out of a chinese finger trap by pulling with all your might. The trap only tightens more. Weariness is like a chinese finger trap. The way out of weary is not battle. It’s rest.
Real rest. Soul-refreshing, mind-engaging, affection-igniting communion with Christ is the way out of weary. Weariness saps away vitality and drains hope. Communion with Christ brings life and renews our hope.
Let your weary soul feast on these life-giving truths:
For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish. -Jeremiah 31:25
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. -Matthew 11:28-30
Let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. -Galatians 6:9
Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away. And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” -Revelation 21:1-5
My weary friend, there is rest for you. It’s found in Christ. And it’s not a quick fix or a silver bullet. It’s a daily seeking after His face and a commitment to being in His presence. But it’s the only way out. Christ bore every single burden of ours on that tree so that we would never have to carry them again. In Him, we have obtained a full and forever rest. May we find our rest in the one who was weary for us.